9 weeks to go

31 Weeks pregnant and I have about 9 weeks to go. I can't believe it's almost here! I'm going to have a baby! I still don't fully believe it. I feel him moving around...A LOT...but I can't even fathom having him here with me every day..outside of my womb. I had my last child 10 years ago and he was born at 38 weeks. My sweet little Tyler Bruce - weighing in at 7lbs 06 oz. He was so tiny and precious. I was instantly in love. Same with my daughter, Allison. Words cannot properly describe the love a parent has for their baby.  I just have a feeling that Ryan Thomas is going to come early. 38 weeks is still full term, but it just means less time to prepare. I am not prepared. I know he'll be loved and fed and have all the necessities and he will come even if I'm not mentally prepared for him.

This is about what I picture Ryan to look like

Whenever Steve and I go out I always point out the wee-ones we see and say "we're going to have that soon"... I say it in disbelief. I don't have the emotional attachment to the other persons baby...so it just doesn't feel real.  I want to see Ryan. I want to see what he looks like. I have foggy pictures in my head. I see a little baby with fair skin and lots of brown hair. Allison had a nice head of hair when she was born, Tyler had a tiny bit of blonde fuzz.  Steve and I are both brunettes and had a head of hair at birth - so that's what I'm going off of. I can't picture his eyes. Steve's are blue and mine are green. Allison and Tyler both have Hazel eyes...a brownish green color.  My sisters have green eyes but they had kids with bright blue eyes. It doesn't matter to me...I'm just so curious. I want to see him. I want to hold him and kiss him and smell his baby smell. 

Mommy's waiting for you Ryan Thomas...