Sunday morning comin' down

  One of my greatest pleasures is waking up early on a Sunday morning while the sun is still rising and it's still cool enough to have the windows and door open. I begin with a little cleaning while I brew myself a few cups of coffee. When I feel I have been productive enough,  I sit down in my recliner, turn  Music Choice on the television and browse the Internet.This is when I usually get girly, gushy and emotional. I don't just sit and cry, but my mind usually wanders to love and broken hearts and my kids and all the things that makes my girl brain...well.. mine.

  Before the wonderful and addicting world of Pinterest I would look at videos on YouTube, and if one looked interesting enough to watch I would mute Music Choice and listen. If the video or lyrics spoke to me then I will usually play it over and over again. At this time it wouldn't be uncommon for some tears to fall as my mind overflowed with emotion. I would end up having to refill my coffee multiple times. Not because I drank it all, but because I would forget and it would get cold.

  Now with Pinterest, I can just click the category Quotes or search for Love and I can fulfill my emotional needs the rest of the morning. This is also when I get the desire to write about what is going through my head. I don't always write them in detail, because even though I'm known for sharing lots of stuff, most of my thoughts will remain mine alone. I would most likely scare a lot of people if I wrote them in detail. I am pretty sure that goes for just about everyone. The mind is a mysterious labyrinth of twists turns, secret passage ways, trick doors and just about anything else you can imagine. 

  This is the video this morning that I listened to over and over again. It came on Music Choice and then I had to find the video, pin it, blog it and listen to it like 10 times.   I love love-songs. I love the emotion that builds up in me imaging being in that persons place. I know it's just a video but the feelings they are portraying speak as if it's real and true. Which is the point of making music and the videos to go along with them. That, and for our entertainment. 

  There are times a song comes on that is just fun and I have no emotional connection to it other than just enjoying the tempo, fun lyrics and video. Taylor Swift is awesome. Her 'Never get back together' song is hilarious. I can't really relate to it as I don't recall ever being in an on again off again relationship...but the video made me laugh. Kinda reminded me of the Bruno Mars Lazy video.

  When I've had my fill of tears, laughter, coffee. I close down my computer and take a shower. :) 

   The End. 

I was told to Journal my days

I used to blog all the time. I had a few years of entries and then one day I just deleted them all. I'm spontaneous like that. The last blog on here. Like the one right before this one today on  July 1st I actually wrote like a year ago and it was in my drafts and I just published it.

So, what's up? I'm out of work for about 3 weeks. Mental stress or what-have-you. I could be private about it and journal secretly but falling in the lines of my author sister...I figure what's the harm in hanging out my skeletons on front lawn for all to see then to hide them in the closet?  Less speculation and talk. Non of anyone's business...yup...but I'd rather any info come from me. It's just my way. Have your own opinion if you will. You're going to anyway. As am I.

For the privacy of others there will be some bits of information I will not disclose. And even if you ask me privately I won't tell you. Not because I don't want to... because if it were up to me I'd be screaming everything to anyone with ears.  I love and respect some people enough to not disclose certain things only because it's not fully mine to share.

To continue with my 3 weeks off work. I was told to journal my days. So this is entry numero uno. It's Sunday morning and I've had 3 cups of coffee. Gevalia. It's good stuff. I know I should probably cut down on my coffee intake and I will try. Today I will not. I want another but I drank it all. Sadness. Oh well..there's also a chocolate bar in fridge. MINE!!

I'm terrible at grammar so I'm not sure where to put periods, commas, colons, semi colons or new paragraphs. I make up my own grammar and words. :) I don't do grammar Nazis either. Poo on you grammar Nazis. fyi, the 4 times I used the word grammar in the last couple sentences I spelled it grammer. :) haha. I had to spell check it. Love spell check. 

I'm reading 50 shades of Grey. Or Gray.  Don't feel like looking up the spelling right now.  Many apologies to my bestest friend Jessica, but this book is annoying me. The writing is juvenile and out of date for the times. Maybe I want my own love story...or maybe I prefer vanilla.  If I forget to pick it up again I won't cry, though I will probably finish reading it to say I that I did. I haven't finished a book since Twilight. *shameful* I also won't be standing in line when the movies come out probably staring Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. Why can I see those 2 as the stars of this book. This book is a mix of Twilight and Pretty Woman gone Flogging.  Maybe I'll have a different opinion once I'm done reading it. For all those lives that have been changed by this...congrats. I'm happy for you.   Maybe I'm just in a cynical bad mood and can't enjoy a fun book.  Or ultimately I'm probably jealous of someone elses love story and feelings that seem to have faded from my own life.   I think I'll have that chocolate bar now.