Dancing in the sky

Inner self

Depression isn't something one can control.  We can feel happiness for a chunk of time and then suddenly be overwhelmed with sadness and despair. We don't ask for it, nor can we predict when it will hit us.  It can last for minutes, hours, days, months or years.  We pray when it hits it's just for a moment until we can see a glimmer of hope...light...whatever it is that makes people get through the day.

If you are lucky enough not to suffer, then please just try and accept.  Just love us.  I feel beyond help.  I don't want advice. I just want love and acceptance. I judge more than you ever could.  Just love me.  It's okay. 

3 Months Old

3 months ago we had our perfect baby boy. He joined his perfectly wonderful siblings and has blessed us every single day.  We just loving seeing him grow and develop into his tiny personality. We couldn't have asked for a better baby.

Ryan has learned to laugh by opening his mouth really wide and sucking in air. It's so funny to watch and he sometimes chokes on his own laugh. It's so silly. He smiles constantly which just brightens up our faces whenever we see it.

 

Ryan has experienced a lot in his three months of life - including camping at San Clemente State Park  . He had great fun and LOVED the ocean. Papa Steve took him out into the water and he was so chill and happy. 

We all enjoyed ourselves immensely and can't wait to go again.

Ryan also loves to stand. He can sometimes stand on his own for a couple seconds but his legs tire out quickly. He wants to and I have a feeling he will be an early walker/runner too. You can just tell he wants to get up and go! Mama is going to get her exercise in, that's for sure. She's looking forward to it though. Nothing like wee-ones to keep a body young and alert.

Baby boy has started loving to be swaddled and put in his his swing. It's two of his favorite things. Another favorite he has is his toy Cookie Monster. He laughs and talks to him like he's an old friend.

We cannot wait to see what else Ryan Thomas has in store for us.

Much Love

Lesley and Steve

One year later. Steve & Lesley

From the moment we met until today we've been inseparable. You were given to me as a gift during a time I needed you the very most. We were blessed by surprise with our sweet baby boy. I can only wonder if it was all destined to be.

Our first date - Sea World July 2013

Our most recent outing and photo together June 2014

You have filled me up with many new friends and family and I thank you so much for the love that surrounds me and my kids. We have had our ups. Lots of them. Every one of them with you fills my heart with love and laughter. We've had downs...not too many and downs come with every relationship - it's how we get through them is what matters. And we've had in-betweens. I still look forward to seeing you every single day. Not a day goes by that I wish you not by my side.  I know we have many years to come and I anxiously await to see what they brings us.

I love you. Happy first year together!